Shikari Hana

          Being a 17 years old teenager (going 18 in 6 more days) is much tougher than I thought. I realize that since january this year, i been changing my attitude as well as my personality many times in order to suit my new life. But, it seems like some of the characteristics I should learn, were clashed together. And once they were clashed, u will find it weird. That’s why i find that it’s very difficult to make decision cause i do not know which is right and which one is wrong.

          If i chose the right one, i am very lucky. If, i chose the wrong one, ppl will start accusing me or talk bad about me. That’s why being now (myself) is very tough course the probability of being right is only 0.5. When i make decision, I prefer taking the majority answer, but during the Leadership Camp, I had learnt that majority might not be the correct one, you might be more educated than those ppl who answer it so need to choose wisely. Therefore, the probability might decrease since i need to take the majority answer as X to count the probability.

Well, some ppl might be curious what kind of characteristic i want to learn…

Since this blog was made to let my friends to know more about me..i should put down some…

- I want to be more caring to ppl around the world, maybe for those ppl who are not happy, i wan to listen to their stories and i wan to try and help.

- I want to be firm, and I want ppl to do things better and do not ignore their own responsibilities.

- I want to have more challenging life. I wish to took part in different things like basketball, swimming, cooking, red cross society, playing the piano, violin, guitar, leadership activity, computers, studies, choir………But i do not expect to be all perfect.

- I want to be nice to everyone, although i might be emotional sometimes.

- I wish to show my love to someone i truly cherish and take good care of him, that’s why i be with Samson.

- I want to give fortune to my friends or family by giving them surprise or those things they really wish to have, cause I really hope someone can treat me like that too.

- I want to do my best to pursue my dreams, cause the definition of my name is a high flyer with a high mission!

          It’s been quite a long time i did not post anything in my friendster blog coz i got my new diary and i decided to write everything on it ^.^ coz…i feel like when i’m typing for my blog, there’s so many things i feel like i need to filter like my own secrets as well as sensitive issues which i do not want to hurt other ppl feelings (anymore). I don’t really like to share my feelings (totally) in public coz some ppl might think that I that i juz wan to let out of my feelings and i don’t think is a good thing to do. maybe i should just share my happy fairy tale story over here which i will be happy after all.

          The difference between my own diary and blog is my diary is like "Princess diary" - if u got read those. Blog is a place u can post your own personal story or message u would like to share with ur friends and hope they will know more about u. ya…i think tat’s my own definition ^.^

Gtg!

          We gonna present the Hari Pahlawan Movie in school next tuesday (During Assembly) Thank God I do not need to be the Watak Utama for female…Phewww!!!!

          Neway, we gonna continue shooting the movie today…God, bless us especially Chun Kai so that we can manage to finish the whole movie before Tuesday. Well…I’m sure everyone of you curious how’s the story will be like right? If u read my previous blog….the one entitled "Hari Pahlawan Movie", u will know more about it :D.

          Trial Exam is getting nearer….omg…need to work harder! but how to work hardeR? Whenever i start studying at night, i will get sleepy…how how how?